Discalimer: It takes a great effort to write a personal diary in foreign language like this. I feel uncomfortable to discussed with english. But, it is more difficult to say something blatant in bahasa. Pardon for my poor vocabulary and grammar. You haven't to read this article till the end for sure. Skip anytime you find this story gets annoying.
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Fair advice from John Wooden tells us that "do not let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do". At this moment in time I need several upgrades to repair my life performance. Did my life go wrong? Nope, but I think some upgrades make it more joyful.
My desk is filled with crowd-confusing-damn-scrap documents. My job is to help people with some administration stuff, most likely to arrange evaluation from management report monthly, quarterly to annually. In the beginning this daily routine was very fun until I met several circumstances that made my mind become numb.
Surprisingly-at that point-I found annoyed things (still in my office but outside my job desk). It was a job problem but more specifically it was a major effect from poor human capital management.
I said "human capital management" because certainly in this place, employee in my level still treat as servant not a potential capital. For some people maybe "human capital" became old scholar in these day, but in my place that "old style" still count as "new style". If you are confused just imagine how feudalism works. That quite fits the description of how these circumstances treat their technical supporters.
How can I describe this situation in the 'poor' level? When human beings work for this place for a dozen years but never enlightenment with proper life management or attitude or prosperity. Anyone can choose one of this option, but when they achieve nothing could we call him stupid, disrespectful, or ignorance? I just cannot believe that someone with that long working experience would become very disturbing, impecunious and worthless. I can't hate someone with an inconsiderable decision. He's a victim.
What can I do?
For now, all I can do is just stand firm to pursue my goals without degrade any associate. If I feel upset, I can run away to learn something new that may be useful for my work. Otherwise endorse my workmate to pursuing a position that fit with their potential.
I write this, because some day maybe blind. I became greedy and ambitious for wealth or power. I hope when I read this article, then I'm awake from that terrible mind.
